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i like to get introspective at times and ask myself a few questions:-

1. what does one seek from life? success, love, happiness, peace? do i even understand what each of these mean? is there a final goal that i want to achieve, something that would give purpose to my actions?
2. why is it so easy to brood over the past and get sad? why is it so easy to get pessimistic and view everything that happened in negative light? why cant just one let go of the past?
3. after 22 years, why do i feel lost and directionless today? its a question of where am i today and where do i go from here? am i heading in the directions i ought to, or am i just being carried away somewhere by the tide?
4. does the present matter or the future? this question has troubled me for two years specifically. maybe i prefer to be a reckless youngster than a mature adult.
5. how much do the ppl around me matter? how many of those that matter today will matter 6 months later when i am in an entirely new setting? how much will i continue to bond with them? will the same old warmth remain?
6. is it possible to be totally unselfish? is it possible to make others happy without seeking anything in return? maybe its possible at times... but does this really last?
7. how much should one value money? should i be guilty if i am spendthrift? how do i know whether i am being miserly or frugal, generous or prodigal?
8. honesty, integrity, ethics.... ppl trample over them all the time, ppl practice double standards.. i myself do. is it possible (practical?) to strictly adhere to ethics and honesty all the time?
9. what is love? what makes ppl fall in love? and more importantly, what makes ppl fall out of love?

i dont think there are definite answers to any of these. each person will have their own philosophy and opinion. if someone cares to share their views with me, i ll be pretty interested.